New skin! Work of my own.
I like to do line work despite the ridiculous amount of time that goes into it.
Had dinner with the bf but prior to that..we found out that Bossini slashed the prices of their twenty nine dollars marvel t-shirts to just NINE.
Got Bf the X-men and Avengers ones.
Another X-men tee for the brother and the Spiderman one for myself.
So happy with the purchase.
It was my first impulsive buy in a very long time.ahahha

I really,in-all-honesty-cross-my-heart-and-hope-to-die wish to delete this blog. REALLY.
BUT. Yes but, am super attached to it.
It in many ways grew up with me.
When was the first post? 2005? Those days when I still type like that... with plenty...of dots...and FonTs ThAt LooK LikE tHis.
Biggest pet peeve now.hahaha

I'd like to think that I matured beyond this blog over the past few years.
I would like to not remind myself of the silly things I used to do.
(Please don't search the archive now)
And yet, I came to a conclusion that it was those silly things that really made me who I am today.
Yes, I'm still a nobody trying to be somebody but I'm a lot more at peace with myself now.
This blog has served me very well. It's a documentation of my growth as a person.
So, I'm thinking of giving it a face lift and blogging more regularly.

After all,

I'm still very much an opinionated person.

" Tell me. sing a song for my lonely soul..."

I don't know why, but to date I am still very much affected by what people think of me.
I'm just starting to feel comfortable around them and to hear a negative comment now; it makes me want to build up walls again. Be all cautious and wary again.
I feel judged and really wanna cry and let you know how bad it feels but I shouldn't.
So I wouldn't.

I know you'll probably come across this post on a later date.
By then, it'll all be over.

"I'll be okay..."

I'm a little thankful that I don't blog here much these days.
Thankful that very few or no one reads it.

I know that I said that it was alright.
BUT...I can't help feeling like I'm some kind of an embarrassment.
Why am I feeling this lousy?

kbye

"Look what we've missed, living like this,nobody wins..."

I feel like I'm falling apart and all you can say is that you're sick of me feeling this way
Wow.
Why don't you just shoot me cause there's no way I'm gonna jump of a bloody building.