back from (my) first day since school re-opened.IM BROKE.ok, random.
had my hair cut minutes ago,decided keep it long again. im so UNGLAMMED nowadays. dont see the point to look good when im suffering major inferiority complex. i have no idea what's with me but im feeling so bad about myself lately.at some point(well most) , i dont wanna be sheryl.im starting to be all pesimistic with close to ZERO zest for life. there's really nothing to look forward to.i dont know and its affecting the people around me. but still, its the people around me that's making me feel this way. as cheesy and corny this may sound , im useless. never done anything right. can never do anyhing right.say im better in art , sorry for being blunt but to most people , as long as you can draw something more than a stick man , you're considered good.
tell me what have i ever done that's worth it?what have i done to change a person's life for the better. I DONT EVEN DARE TO DONATE BLOOD!what have i done that there's someone really appreciating it.
none.zilch.zero.fuck.im like freaking disappointed with myself.
im so tired of all this that crying doesnt even solve the problem anymore.
im just a spoilt brat taking up space.
im so tired and there isnt really anybody to turn to.they'll all think of me as stupid and lame, like my life isnt 'good' enough.
maybe i should die early and then donate my organs to somebody who needs it.
at least that will change somebody's life.

i dont find satisfaction in my life