i've still yet to blog about the happy stuff.
christmas is nearing , but i dont feel the joy. i really dont at all.
im feeling really depressed. so are those i care for.
apparently , this year's christmas is going to really be something most people are NOT looking forward to.
usually , at this time of the year , i would've taken my whole stack of christmas cards and started writing.
making knick knacks.
fantasizing what i'll receive for christmas. rachel asked me yesterday what i wanted for christmas.
i only then realise i havent thought of it. it seemed so unimportant and all.
i want to be happy. i want the people i love to be happy.
i want my friends and family to be happy.
can anybody give that?
Dear God, is that too much to ask?
i'll forgo all my future presents, i really dont care about them.