someone just triggered my alter ego.ok. many people and things triggered my alter ego today. and they are still oblivious to it. screaming and trashing things are becoming so old school. i have absolutely no way of letting out all these feelings of stress, anger , sadness, hatred. good things take time? or so many people say. my good thing had better be a hell of a good one. i've been waiting a long time. i've come to realise i'll never get what i want or need. you know , life's so unfair. some people get all the good stuff when they dont deserve it. and some just dont. im getting a little too tired having to repeat my story to every friend who's concern and who has only found out how badly my life sucks. thanks for your concern, but back off if i dont want to tell. i dont want to end up screaming at you too. im a very unpredictable character now. i dont even know myself. i dont want to lose a friend in the process. and those who already do know , i'll be depending alot on you. so dont abandon please. im a wimp , a big cry baby who's nothing.


my life feels so empty. there's no purpose in life for me anymore.
everyday i sink a little deeper.
everyday i hurt myself a little more

prayers are not helping anymore.

i ask for somebody to take the pain away.
nobody did.
i asked for somebody to comfort me thru everything.
nobody did.


its hard fact ive got to face.im doing this alone.
friends can help. but they're not 24 hours.
i know it unreasonable to seek comfort from a friend at 5 in the morning.
but it DOES happen to me.
i wake up at 5 to cry for no GOD damn reason.


you're alone sheryl. wake up.