Farid , you couldnt have chosen a better day to put me down.

ha.

i told myself to be strong and put all my problems aside and just focus on school.

i cant do that anymore.

i cant even sit for my assessment in peace.

i cant register cause i havent paid my fees and i have 1 day to that.

i cant sit for assessment cause i have yet to appeal.

i believe there's something terribly wrong with me.

i am very capable of repelling people away.ha.

i've watched everyone walked out on me.

my family has long given up.

my friends, im losing them one by one.

mummy's right, nobody owes me anything.

i have to let them walk away when they want to walk away.

i was right about people coming and going in my life.

was a fool to believe that this theory only applies to certain people.

so the next 2 people im close to who will walk out on me will most probably be jaja and irni.

i can almost confirm.

im really tired and losing faith.

so far, all life's taught me was to not trust and hope.

i've learnt my lesson now.

sometimes, actually most times.

no, EVERYTIME, things dont happen the way you want them to.

trying is never enough.