i dont like to be reminded that i have problems. i took great pains to hide them away so you'll believe i am fine. if i got you all fooled, i'll probably be able to fool myself t00.

dont expose me.

honestly, i feel a little satisfied when i can cry my problems away and not tell anyone. nobody needs to know. even if i do spill, it'll always be the same old story. issues with me and me and me, and some , him.i bet you're all tired of it.

im so close to giving up again. i know there's so many people supporting me, encouraging me. but they dont get me very far. do you even attend the loser 3D class with me? do you comfort me when the class ends. do you know what it feels like being an outcast.seriously knowing you dont belong anywhere.

and thats just a single module. will you all be there when i retake the modules during vacation?

you wont.

i know im asking for too much. but it helps get me thru knowing that i'll receive comfort after a long bad day.

happy birthday papa. i wished i was able to look happier but somebody really exposed me today.

i hate every single thing about me. so people, dont you dare love me.