i feel weird. in an emo country way.

what's new? its not the first time im feeling this way anyway.

im pretty angry at myself for constantly wanting the impossible, when im so terribly blessed.

that fella at bugis mrt with the deformed face made me feel worse.

why am i so discontent?

i said i wanna live of others happiness but im contradicting myself by being so fucking selfish.

i might laugh off those problems when i voice em out to close friends, 

but when im alone, i feel like somebody ripped my heart out and left me here to bleed.

its silly. it really is.

to still be holding on.tsk.

i said i'll be happy for her, him , him and her and him.

and here i am being selfish , wondering why God left me out of the happy picture.

And I still _______________

"tonight i find myself kneeling by the bed to pray

  i havent done this in a while

  so i dont know what to say but

  God, I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place

  yeah, i know theres more important things, but

  dont forget to remember me

  dont forget to remember me....."