Im sorry if this post guilt trips you.

but im cranky and i dont wanna care about anybody's feeling.

It's not fair that your life is going perfectly fine when Im still paying an eight months old(still counting)mistake.

I've yet to recover, yet to move on cause i have yet to clean up the fucking mess.

you're not holding me back, the mess is.just to be clear.

this mess is gonna cause me another 2 more years. that all the plans i have for myself. 

find me a reason to be happy and i will be.

i hate to avoid the people i used to be close to. tsk tsk .farid knows who.

but i gotta think for myself.i dont want to give myself another reason to hurt.

so while this person is oblivious to it.

i shall keep it a secret only farid knows. the un-re-bootable file.

its not funny anymore when its been so long. its stupid. i wanna move on goddamit.

what's so good about you to keep me holding on anyway?fucker.i mean like my eyecandy is better looking lar. so why cant i move on?dont listen to me, im not sure if im even making sense.

i'll retake at the end of yr 3. 

im an expert at running away from problems.

so i'll leave it to yr 3.

i love my folks so im gonna stay in school for them. even though it takes me a longer time than most.I'll solve this on my own.

the 1st 2 paragraphs refers to 2 different people anyway...

and there's a growth in my maternal instinct. i've no idea why.

maybe's cause allesia's often at my place thats why.

she's so smart, she knows how to operate my mac(: