"I've got my heart beating patiently along, waiting for the other half its song..."

You know, I really feel the need to move on with my life.

In all aspects.

School, friends , love , family , ambitions , dreams.

Why hold on to things you know that will not be part of your life?

Why try so hard?

Why hurt yourself trying?

Are they even aware of what you're doing for them?

What you're hiding so it won't affect them?

Why on earth am I obsessing with something I'll never have?

I'm not like everyone.

It takes a lot more for me to let go than most people. 

But I'm a stubborn person as mum says.

She did also warned that it'll hurt me one day.

It did.

For those who already know.

Remember how I refused to let go of that failed relationship?

And I ended up missing out on other better things.

And I still don't learn my lesson.

Isn't it strange?

I really envy people who are able to think with their heads rather than their hearts

I stopped listening to emo music for awhile.

Exchanged it for a little 'The Tings Tings' and 'Katy Perry'

But I found my way back to it again.

'Eyes set to kill' has been VERY comforting lately.

I ought to shake off this emo identity.

It really doesn't suit me.

I should be behaving like a NORMAL gemini.

I feel too cancer-ish , scorpio-ish.

I feel empty and faithless.

Tell me what to do next.