time i posted.
i feel myself slipping in and out of depression mode.
feel myself slipping away from God. not much but it didnt feel like the peak it did the past few days.
i oughta trust God , but there's some things i cant help but think.

i think putting my thoughts in words would do good.
so here's a letter to God:

dear God,
there's so many people to pray for and i sincerely hope you answer all of them.
i think my recent prayers has been nothing but sincere.
i've been praying day and night , but my prayers for them dont seem to work. father , i desperately want you to help them.some of the prayers dont quite have the benefit of time.father , you changed my life , please change theirs too. all these people i love and care for, dear lord please reach out your hands to embrace them , support them , encourage them and to heal them. please bless them with your grace. father , im willing to sacrifice for them. should you ask me to fast for the next 5 years, i will fast to prove how sincere i am.
the list of people , i shant disclose what im praying for cause some of them are pretty confidential.
mummy
papa
geshy's mum
geshy
rachel
melvin
hamid
hafiz
farid
lynn
irni
haziyah
sarah
father, please bless them in whatever way you deem necessary. i ask this prayer in Jesus most holy name.
Amen.







writing out my prayers does ensure that i do not miss anybody out in my daily prayers.i feel so much relief now.=)