I've taken a strange fondness to the idea of having a hoodie on and stepping out in the rain. it seems like a wonderful escape. maybe i've been watching one too many avril music videos. but music's a free form of expression too. no? whatever songs relatable , i'll like. right now avril's nobody's home seem so applicable to my life. i've been drifting and drifting. my life's getting really old. its tiring even though im not doing anything. one day of enlightenment and then discouragement by someone else is not getting me anywhere. i really have to get out of the house. i really dont want to fight my folks anymore. i've let them down enough. im fascinating the idea of running away from home.again. i'll sleep on the streets if i have to.take me away and end all of this please. i dont want to fight it anymore.

end it.