i spent the new year trying to slip out of the house because my folks were shouting at each other and thinking i was forgotten.
BUT...
i was not(:
at first i spent the countdown alone, but later decided to head down to sakura to celebrate with the rest.
before i left the house( i was thinking to sneak out actually.) mum called be her bedroom and she was crying.she asked me what i wanted to do and how it really hurts her to see me like that. well , that kinda affected me big time. we ended up crying together.
in all my 17 years , this was the first time i hugged my mum and told her i love her.
felt a fuzzy sense of achievement.

at sakura, well thank God for the wonderful people. i was happier i think.
the first time meeting up with geshy after the split. well, i think it was a good thing.we're on good talking terms i guess?
im happy for that.

watched the first sunrise of 2008 from sakura's rooftop. it was a sight, lying on your back facing the vast purplish sky turning blue.
i didnt know why, but i was terrified and i just broke down. the sunrise officially marked a new beginning.remember when i once said i wanted to run away for as long as i can. it was painful to let go of all the past and wonderful memories, but silly me , i'll always hold them close to my heart. sent a little prayer up to heaven.

later i had a heart to heart talk with my brother in law. glad that it took place really.

yes, i'll have my occasional downs but im glad that its working out. still trying to find me inside of me.
still finding my driving factor.
im gonna find a way to love myself before expecting somebody to love me.
but im gonna find love soon(: or i hope-hahaha


anyway,
gesh threw an aerosal can into the bbq. these things explode! so while the rest moved away, hafiz and i were still sitting infront of it talking. if faz hadnt took the risk to take it out, you can imagine what would have happened.i realised im very slow.
the funny bit was:
azmin : " eh , my girlfriend(faz) there you know"
nasrul: " girlfriend not important. can get new one. but charcoal expensive."

funny lar
we were this close to burning down sakura

oh , gonna defame hafiz, he sat in the corner watching porn. what the heck. then when he got caught , he feigned innocence. the rest went to join in er 'guy activities."

guys are affiliated with new gadgets/games and porn. no?hahah
just as girls with shopping and chocolate (:

pictures



like farid said. if only faz hadnt smile