its really good therapy to cry. sorry farid. i'll try not to bother you again,
im really trying very hard to not be a burden.and let my problems affect only me and not the people around me.
i guess death does seem to be a solution. one that i'll never have the courage to find out.
im so useless. scared to die. scared to live.
im really stuck here. i feel like withdrawing from the people i love.i sometimes feel that i love them too much only to know that they reciprocate only 1/2 of what i contributed.
i dont belong anywhere.
will never belong anywhere. i'll always be out of place somehow.
be it primary school. i never fit in with the chinese kids.
hung out with the malays but didnt fit in either.
lower secondary i was part of the 2 cliques.
i didnt fit in the ahlian one
i didnt fir in the normal one.
secondary 3. i hang out with them. but didnt fit in.
1st year of nafa.i wanted to cry everyday cause i didnt fit in.
nafa ambassador.met plenty of friendly people but i didnt fit in
current class.i still feel out of place most times.
i dont belong in the family cause im always a failure paling in comparison to so many.
im now starting to realise that i dont belong to the sakura people either.
out of the bunch, i love them the most, but i dont feel like i belong there anymore.
or rather i dont feel like im needed/wanted there anymore.
where do i belong exactly?even God doesnt want me.