the yuppie died down already.

sometimes, there are some things you just dont want to be reminded of.And yet, they are not avoidable.

like natasha is still bugging me asking why geshy and i broke up.why do you need to know?you're merely nine years old.

and the more innocent cases like aiden. (the whole family crashed my place yesterday.) he was looking for my hamster. he rushed to my room the first thing he stepped through the gate and went 'ber ber' .baby talk for hamster. i cant possibly blame him for it.

and my dad( the whole family's been trying to stuff me since the word about me fainting got out.)he was being thoughtful and went to buy lunch for me even though i said i didnt want it.

i got grumpy and kinda snapped at him overlooking the main intention why he did so in the first place. i feel bad you know.

its like my problems are not my problems. its affecting everyone around me as well.

i tried to contain it. keep it to myself and not let it show.in the end, i always have to borrow a pair of listening ears. even that of the last person in the world i should be crying to.

God promised that he'll always walk beside me. 

but He seems so obviously absent when i need him most.

i'll hold on though.not like have another option.