i dont fucking need advice from anyone.im sick of listening to them.

like i dont even have a fucking space to feel stressed.

its like im already brimming and you all have to put more in.

dont you dare fucking advice me. i need solutions.

im regretting everything i did in the past.

i shouldnt have joined sakura.

if i didnt , the series of events would not have followed and i wouldnt be where i am now.

fucking bullshit.

i prayed that my faith will stay firm at this phase. 

but its you God who keeps pushing me away.

everyone's telling me to hang on. 

hang on to what fucking shit!!?