I guess this is it.

Pretty impossible to hang on anymore.

I'll finish this term before I dropout.

Dont ask me what Im gonna do next.

I dont have plans.

But I am gonna move out before my folks find out what a loser I am.

I cant even make them proud.

Eight months is far more than enough suffering.

Im very tired.Ive got nothing left really.

I can say Im only glad I was able to hide this for so long.

Nobody knows the whole story.

Not Irni, not farid, not jaja, not atiqa.

not unless you people meet up and discuss all you know.

but thank you people anyway, for trying to make me hold on each time i wanna give up.

i dont have a choice now.

to god:

"i never wanted to say this, you never wanted to stay. i put my faith in you, so much faith and you just threw it away..."