"I hid all my pain and now i bring it out.And you'll be scared at first cause it's such an ugly blow. I dont know which is worse. to learn or not to know..."

when i think about the future, i see NOTHING.

i'm really tired knowing my life is not gonna go the way i want it to.

the part on career and aspirations a flop.

im waiting to see how much worse the situation can get.

yes, optimism isnt my cup of tea no more.

i like starving myself. i get the thrill of seeing myself waste away. i like knowing that i'll be reduced to skin and bones. i get extremely excited when i get my fainting spells. i enjoy the discomfort. it distracts me from thinking.

dont question why im behaving like such a mental case.

ask God, he planned my life out for me.

Im just living it.