"No one ever said it'd be this hard..."

I feel so empty. I dont know how to describe it any other words.

I think I should have met up with Luq for photoshooting.

Well, hopes tomorrow goes well.

And I feel very disgusted at myself.

I look damn fugly.

My hair is so fucking thick and it looks like hay.

My thighs are so FUCKING fat and full of cellulite.

Ok. to you it may seem like Im whining and what not.

But to me, if I think I look horrid. I'll feel horrid and all the more I will hide in my shell.

Bipolaring is NOT fun I tell you.

HAZIYAH ! HAWE! when are we sentoLA-ing?

and i still have no news from razak with regards to the business.

I feel stress about being stress.

I rambling nonsense again.