"Don't forget to remember me..."

I can't sleep. A lot of things are laying me down really.

I'm missing out on so many things.

I was looking forward to OL camp or orientation itself for the matter.

I was looking forward to sports day cause I missed out on last year's.

You know, people always say, " You lose some, you gain some."

I've been losing and losing and so far , compensation isn't anywhere close.

And I got to keep up this lie.

The first time mum asked me when school was starting. I said july.

She did it again today confirming when, I replied end of the month and laughed it off, including the fact that I still get to sleep till noon for a few more weeks.

It sucks to have to do this alone and pretend its okay.

For one thing I hated so badly, I managed to ace it.

Failure.

Letting myself down is one thing. Letting my world down is another.

So tell me what else am I good at?

Oh do show me what other talents I have , cause my artistic ones ain't good enough.

Just because my stickman looks nicer than the average person's, you call me talented.

Talented people don't have their future ended this way.

Nothing's ever enough.

Trying is never enough.

AND the asshole who said ' nothing's impossible' obviously never tried to nail jello to a tree.

Sheryl ,don't get my hopes up only to let me down.