"And you whispered you love me..."

I was going through my old messages ( all the way from last year) and I think I've changed a lot.

Most definitely, the control over my emotions.

Trust me, I still emo a fair deal.

I get frustrated, annoyed and angry very often too.

You don't know that, do you?

See, I told you I succeeded.

Still, I feel so far away from happiness.

Change took away my guts, my boldness. It took away my tact, my understanding, my ability to openly express myself.

It pushed people away.The independence took over my reliance on people.

I feel they're gone. I miss them.

But I don't want to go back to the shit situation.

Where did they go to?

I used to be a do then think person.

I'm now a think and think person.

The do part never comes in.

If you ask me why I'm still here.

I'll tell you, I scared.