was supposed to blog about how some one calling jesus ,santa claus and when corrected,she insisted that jesus and santa are really similar cause they grant wishes.er , santa gives out presents? she said that if i pray really hard he will answer all my wishes. sorry for being a bitch. but for person who calls jesus ,santa , you shouldnt be telling me how i should pray. and all the more associating him to a wishing star.if she stood in church and said that , i think everyone would probably forget about sinning for a moment and slap her.
then there's was this stupid librarian(i never get why all librarians are such asses)who is either acting dumb or is REALLY dumb.i had an overdue book , so i decided to return it 1st and pay the next time.cause logically , i cant loan out another book if i dont pay up my fine. so i explained to her that i didint have change.she just give that stupid face and went one dollar.so repeated and she repeated.THE CYCLE WENT ON FOR FIVE TIMES.is she dumb or what?the last time i repeated, i raised my voice at her so my message did get across.she then told me that upon my next visit , i cannot borrow any resources. as if telling me that will magically make a dollar appear.did she think that i didnt want to pay up and threatened with that statement?i just went ok and headed to meet irni.somebody fire her already.

ok,back to my point.
ever since a certain conversation, i was overwhelmed by insecurities.i used to be independent but my life took a 360 turn and im being so dependent and wimpy.i used to be able to adapt to changes but i cant seem to picture my life now if changes were to take place. im happy now and somehow you had me convinced that the future is bleak.i dont know. maybe im just emo these days.you took my confidence and faith away.