was a wrong move to come back home.
came home to find one of my babies dead.im not gonna keep a pet again.i hate having to get attached and lose it.i dont know how sarah took care of them la.my world is still quite crappy with regards to the family.sarah told me jokes that are simply not funny and she got angry cause i didnt laugh.i seriously dont need this kind of treatment.ass.ARGH.i thought i was childish. she's worse.im suddenly reminded of the kinder bueno inccident
well.rachel's house isnt too fine either.
sorry to be crude AND rude but her mum is sorta worse than my mum.wish she will cut rachel some slack.

God works in strange ways. the thing that broke me mended me.
i woke up that day deciding to hate God.the day before , i ran to shannen's place the day before hoping she'll convince me how wonderful God is.but she didnt managed to.i felt so abandoned that i decided to break down at vivo's coffee bean on the second day of my run away. free show for the public.i practically hardened my heart against God and rachel didnt know what to do with me.but somewhere secretly , i was hoping that God still had his firm grip on me.i woke up the next day feeling the same.but that night when i was on the cab heading to rachel's, i received a text from him. we fought abit , but after we cleared up the misunderstanding. i felt so much better. havent cried since then=)
im slowly picking myself up. starting with school.hopefully.

people i really must thank.those wonderful people who were there when i really needed them.
rachel
melvin.
the way they hugged me was really nice in a goofy way.
shannen
irni
and hafiz who's more power than me cause he has 4 weeks of school to catch up

well , let us triumph of suffer from brain damage.


thank God for everything