there are five types of people in my life right now.

1st - those who care but are unable to do anything but listen.
2nd - those who gave up caring
3rd - those who dont care at all
4th - those who are just overlooking the drama
5th - those who dont know at all.

its been months that ive been drifting. its enough. its not like i didnt try to turn the whole situation around.i swear i did. i fucking did. but im merely mortal with so many FUCKING limitations. i feel real bad going into mood swings every five minutes you know. its like you see happy sheryl for a day and there she goes out the door slamming it shut into everybody's face.
you know what sucks most? its the fact that i know what's wrong and how to fix it but im unable to.

you guys keep telling me its okay and that its gonna be okay. its been three months! ive been sober all along! i know what wrong! ive seen myself lose to me! y'all geddit?i totally know.

i know.

ive got so much anger bottling up but i dont have and avenue to vent it on.
things happen for a reason right?God you gave me obstacles knowing i can handle right?
now here's the fact straight into your face.
i cant.
you know too little.
you throw me one obstacle after another.
well here's another fact.
its not getting me any stonger alright?
cant you tell already?
enough's enough.