Its getting really hard to hide,
These feelings so deep inside.
Thought i locked them up,
Thrown away the key,
Together with all my tears and insecurities.


i feel something gnawing inside of me. trying to fight its way out of the prison i kept it in.
i cannot stand being alone. it gives too much room to think.
im breaking under pressure. im walking the road i walked before. im returning to the place i had badly wanted to escape.
im crumbling again.
the signs are showing
the tears.my own health. the fainting spells and blackouts are here again.

Dear God , take me with you.
dont let anyone miss me
so i can leave this world behind.