what happens when trying is not enough?
i've tried and she still died.
its not fun crying alone.its not fun crying and never receive any comfort.
why does God have to rob me of my only consolation.
why does he still kick me when im already on the floor
the one way to really hurt me is to ask me to let go.
and i have to do that over and over again.

im sorry irni , farid, hamid and whoever.
as much as you all try to be supportive and encouraging. i know im alone. im aware.
there's no way you can feel the pain .
there's no way at all.

last night i felt something seizing my heart and calling my name. i wonder what that is.
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